You like me, you really like me!!!!

Is it a sign of having low self-esteem to be constantly surprised that people want to hang out with you?...

I mean, it sure does sound pretty pathetic when I write it out like that.

But truth is, when I hear from people (even my friends really) and they want to plan on getting together or something, there's always that tiny part of me that's like 'Yeah?! Really?? Ok. Cool!!'

A little embarrassing maybe; that I'm still feeling this way even with people I've known for ages, but then again it also means that I'm never taking my friends for granted. And you know, that's not a bad thing to come out of this little reflex.

Even though I'm an introvert, through-and-through, I really do like people and I feel special knowing that someone would want to talk to talk or hang out with me. So when I know that someone is choosing to be with me, rather than do something else with their time, that feels pretty sweet.

I mean, of course I provide value to a relationship. Of course I'm 'worthy' of another's time. (I'm pretty awesome, ok??) But that doesn't mean I shouldn't appreciate my friends or the fact that they want to be with me.

Anyways, even though I think we should always expect our friends to be there, even when we aren't our best selves, it's always good to remember to put things in perspective.

I'm loved and wanted, and that's a special thing that should always ALWAYS be appreciated.