I’m having trouble describing my state at the moment. I've been slipping into this 'zen like substance' and I'm not exactly sure what to do with myself.
I call it a 'zen like substance' because it’s not like I'm avoiding my inferior or anxiety ridden feelings. It’s just that once they hit me, I can kinda make them slip away...
Happiness, peace, fullness, fulfillment doesn't come from an outside source. You can't get enough stuff, be more, look different, get smarter, do more and expect to feel any different than you feel right now.
Sure those things can support happiness or encourage it (though this can also support negative feelings as well) but they’re not the SOURCE of happiness.
I’ve heard myself say before 'if I just get out of here, if I just lived somewhere where I was around my friends, if I was just doing more, THEN I’d be happy’ but that is a LIE.
If you want to be sustained, it comes from the inner you.
I’M STILL WORKING ON THIS GUY’S.
Most of the time I only get fleeting glimpses of the person I want to be.
This morning I was rocked to the core for about 15 minutes -- devastated that I missed out on another fun event inCalifornia .
But then I remembered, ’OH, YEAH, RIGHT!! That inner longing is fictitious.’
Sure it would be fun to do, and it would be an experience of a life time. I really sincerely hope I get to do that kind of thing at some point in my life. But let’s face it, that event won't sustain me. It won't give me a LASTING feeling of happiness.
That has to come from me. It comes from the meaning I put into my life.
So, I'm making today the day where I take nothing for granted.
I'm going to go spend Easter with my family. I hope you have a nice day today no matter where you are or who you're with.
I call it a 'zen like substance' because it’s not like I'm avoiding my inferior or anxiety ridden feelings. It’s just that once they hit me, I can kinda make them slip away...
Happiness, peace, fullness, fulfillment doesn't come from an outside source. You can't get enough stuff, be more, look different, get smarter, do more and expect to feel any different than you feel right now.
Sure those things can support happiness or encourage it (though this can also support negative feelings as well) but they’re not the SOURCE of happiness.
I’ve heard myself say before 'if I just get out of here, if I just lived somewhere where I was around my friends, if I was just doing more, THEN I’d be happy’ but that is a LIE.
If you want to be sustained, it comes from the inner you.
I’M STILL WORKING ON THIS GUY’S.
Most of the time I only get fleeting glimpses of the person I want to be.
This morning I was rocked to the core for about 15 minutes -- devastated that I missed out on another fun event in
But then I remembered, ’OH, YEAH, RIGHT!! That inner longing is fictitious.’
Sure it would be fun to do, and it would be an experience of a life time. I really sincerely hope I get to do that kind of thing at some point in my life. But let’s face it, that event won't sustain me. It won't give me a LASTING feeling of happiness.
That has to come from me. It comes from the meaning I put into my life.
So, I'm making today the day where I take nothing for granted.
I'm going to go spend Easter with my family. I hope you have a nice day today no matter where you are or who you're with.
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